I Am Progressing.
TODAY’S BRAVE ACT
Let your brave muscle repair and strengthen by reflecting and appreciating the daily small wins you’ve been accomplishing.
TODAY’S JOURNAL PROMPT
A recent moment that left me feeling scared and discouraged …
I had my money all planned out back in January, covering all my bills. Then my basement flooded and the plumber was called. Which took the $600 some dollars I had earmarked for bills. I didn’t know how to pay those bills. I was just reaching the rim of the red hole at the bank and did not want to go back down. You have to understand I have no savings (due to being out of work and unemployment ending before a job began) and no credit cards available to use (due to living off them for a year). Again, I felt useless and totally lost. Stressed. Angry. Afraid.
Reflecting on this moment, I see now that I grew from this challenging situation in the following way …
I reaffirmed my resolve not to ask for help with my money problems as it causes problems in my family. I am the odd duck in the family, totally different from anybody else. Well, not everybody in the family. My father’s sister, Peggy, wrote stories. I can’t tell you how relieved I was when, in my teens, I found some of her notebooks and realized that yes, there was actually a writer in the family. She was also smart as a whip and, I think, bored by mundane things. I got that also, at least the boredom. I didn’t get her scientific bent nor her alcoholism, but I’ve come to understand both.
I realized that I needed to change my relationship with money. I didn’t see abundance, rather I saw lack. Now, every morning on my way to work, I repeat, “Happy, healthy and financially secure,” all the way. It is already turning my thoughts about money around.
Yes, I will have unexpected bills and yes, money will be tight. If, however, I remember that the money will be there – even if I don’t know how or when or why – then I’ll be all right. And being all right, is just what I need to be.
Sometimes I feel like when I take one step forward, I end up falling two steps back. What’s important in this situation is that I don’t let these setbacks deter me from staying course and moving forward. I must remember that life moves in waves and it’s okay to have bad days, as long as I get back up and keep pressing ahead.
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