Question of the Day 3-19-2018

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What are you proud of? What is your biggest accomplishment so far?

I was watching Bi-Polar documentaries last night on Youtube, trying to find one I could give to my Dad to help him understand the world in which I live. As I watched each, however, I kept discarding them. Okay, so reality check. My Bi-Polar isn’t your Bi-Polar. Your Bi-Polar isn’t mine.

Nothing fit. To be honest, it was the parts about suicide which didn’t fit. I know suicide is a serious issue for many with Bi-Polar, but it has never been an issue for me. Maybe because, as a writer, I have characters who can take on that pain for me. I have had characters attempt suicide. I have had characters kill themselves, but I have never wanted to or tried to kill myself.

A proud point? Yes.

A point I want to emphasis to my father? No. Not really.

It is hard enough dealing with myself, much less putting out information to my father which does not apply to me. Would he believe me if I said I never wanted to kill myself?

Does it matter if he believes me or not? Yes, it does. I feel so alienated from my family most of the time that I don’t want anything else to come between us. They walk on eggshells around me as it is. I don’t want to be handled. I don’t want Bi-Polar/suicide to be my place in my family.

Does that make sense?

So proud, but still confused.

Does anybody have any suggestions on what Bi-Polar programs might be a good introduction for the normal world?




2 thoughts on “Question of the Day 3-19-2018

  1. I don’t know much about being Bi-polar, however I think it is a good thing that you are not suicidal and you really don’t want your family to always see you as the odd thumb sticking out.

    Family is usually the last to accept one’s issues but when they do, you would hate that they know. There’s always this overrating and over caring they carry on which reminds you that you are different.

    You will find the help you seek! Big hugs.


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