JSW Prompt – 4-26-2021

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The JSW Challenge is open to anybody who wishes to participate. Using the writing prompt, write a flash fiction no longer than 500 words and post to your page. The Challenge starts on Monday and runs through Sunday each week. Please remember to link your story back to this post so everyone can read your entry.

This Is What I Think 3-19-2021

“I am not what you think I am. You are what you think I am.”

When I first read this quote I was like “Yes!” I felt vindicated for all the times I thought people were judging me. But then I read it again. And again. And again.

If “I am not what you think I am. You are what you think I am,” then You are not what I think you are. I am what I think you are.

I was instantly not happy when I realized that whatever I put to ‘them’ also came back on me. I know the sentiment, the four fingers pointing back when you point at somebody else, but what I wanted was a way to justify my feeling of being judged. And a way to make the judge in the wrong. What better statement than this? You are what you think I am. It puts the whole blame? implications? back on the one judging me.

But it isn’t that clear and easy as I’m sure some of you knew instantly. And it comes down to the statement that we judge each other for the un-liked and unkind parts of us we see in them. Another statement which, on the surface, doesn’t make me happy.

Face it, I wanted to clear way to judge my judgers. The truth is, however, while they are judging me for the parts of themselves they see in me, I am doing the same back.

I’ve been wrangling with the sentiment ever since. It made me step back and look at how I am judging other people and how I am assuming they are judging me. Maybe they aren’t judging me; maybe I’m judging myself through their eyes. Either way, I have to come to terms with my own judgements. I am having to step back when I do judge and ask myself if I am what I am judging them for.

“I am not what you think I am. You are what you think I am.”

How does this statement fit into your life?

Friday Fictioneers 2-23-2021

PHOTO PROMPT © David Stewart

The marshmallow lights stretched across the field like a string of aliens making for the border. Next thing you knew, they’d be asking for asylum because their Moon Gorky was being mean to them.  Well, damn it, as far as he was concerned those aliens could just go back to where they came from.

The touch on his shoulder pulled Jeffrey back from his character’s mind and he turned.

“Jeffrey, will you take Karen on the Merry-Go-Round?”

Oh, please! “Yes, dear, of course……” As if he didn’t have better things to do at his typewriter, what with an alien invasion looming and all…

Learning To Fly 4-22-2021

And days go on. Days counting down slowly and cruelly since I lost one of my best friends. Cindy Bergin, I miss you with every inch and fiber of my being. When I had forgotten how to swim, you taught me how to float, then how to swim again, and then you taught me how to fly.

And how do I go on? Without you, I would have never learned to stand on my own, to walk away when the moments called for it. You taught me self-sufficiency and hope for the future.

Cindy, you were one of the most self-aware and self-sufficient person I have ever know. You lived life to its fullest. How do I go on?

It is hard to put into words what you meant to me and what I know you meant to all your other friends and family. You were a light in the darkness. You were a fierce friend, willing to drop everything in an instant to support your friends.

I enjoyed writing with you. You were wild and free and happy to go to the extremes of the universe. Our ships will never fly again without you. How do I go on?

I remember the first time I met you in person. It was at Breyerfest. I hadn’t even known you collected Breyer horses and then you were coming down to Kentucky. We passed each other by at first, neither of us recognizing the other for a moment. And then you were there and my life began to change for the better.

After that, I looked forward to Breyerfest not only because it was a celebration of the model horses I had collected since childhood, but because you were there. Going home from Breyerfest was like a loss, but there was always next year. Now there are no more next years.

Nine hours is too far to separate friends, but, at the same time, those nine hours meant nothing. We saw each other once a year and yet, no matter how long between times we talked, every time was like we had spent no time apart. How do I go on?

You made me laugh at the world and at myself, but, even more important, you showed me the power of love. You never ended a phone call without saying “I love you.” And I suspect, you ended every call with every friend and family member with those exact same words. How do I go on?

I know, one day, the pain of your loss will fade. It will never go away completely, but it will fade. I will learn how to celebrate your life and live with the emptiness you left in mine. But right now all I have is tears for the loss I will feel for the rest of my life.

Cindy, you were, and still are, a friend of a lifetime. I will never know another person like you. How do I go on?

More importantly, how do we all go on without you?

Question of the Week 4-21-21

What words or phrase do you need to hear today?

“Everything is going to be all right.”

That’s what I need to hear today. Two weeks ago, I lost one of my best friends. My whole world changed and I need to know that, in the end, things will be okay. My world will keep turning and the empty space in my life will not always be so large and….. empty. I can’t even write about it, the pain is so fresh. So, today, I just need to know it will be all right in the end.