Gratitude 8-19-2018

I’ve been think lately about life; its ups and downs; the people you meet, for a day or a lifetime, who become friends and mentors and teachers. If you know me well, you know I am not one for putting my life up on Facebook or anywhere else besides my blog. With all this said, however, and after writing a blog piece about integrity and living my life open and honestly, I feel the time is right for me to open up about an issue in my life.

On August 28th, I will undergo surgery for a totally hysterectomy due to cancer in my uterus. I am not afraid of the results since my doctors seem to think this will take care of the issue and I will be ‘cured.’ Still, I have been thinking about my life and, despite my trials and tribulations, how blessed I really am.

In June, I had to file bankruptcy mostly because of the medical mishap I experience in 2016. I want to thank my friends and family on 4E who supported me during that trial as well as those who supported me during my entire learning experience on 4E. I love you all and I miss you all and I wish you all the best. Being on 4E taught me that I could do more than I had ever imagined and that a job could also be a fulfillment of more than just a paycheck. Thank you again for all your love and support during one of the worse times of my life.

I want to thank my new family at North Fork for all the love and support I have received while moving back into the work force and adjusting to the things I can and can’t do. I thank you for all the support you have given me with my trials of this year. Your concern and support has reinforced the belief that work can be more than just work; that it can be fulfilling in all sorts of ways, personal and public. (And, thanks, for dragging me to the movie. Don’t pay attention to my analytic writer’s mind).

I want to thank all my friends in the model horse world for all the fun and laughter over the years. I met some of the best friends through model horses and am so thankful for their presence in my life.

I also want to thank my family for their support. I still miss my Mom every day and I will miss her every day for the rest of my life. My father who has made the great leap to try to be everything to me since she died. And my sister. What can I say? We don’t understand each other because we are on totally different wave lengths in life, but a sister is a sister and I am thankful for her presence in my life. (Except for the time you broke my Marx horse’s neck).

I can’t write this without thanking Anna D and Linda P. for all they have done for me during times of great stress and fear. Thank you all for supporting me so completely.

Thank you to all who follow my blog and comment on my work. Your words mean more than you can ever imagine.

I wish all the joy and happiness and beauty to all those in my life, both past and present. I am experiencing a newfound gratitude for all that I have gained in my life and, strangely enough, all that I have lost.

Be grateful for life. For rainy days and sunshine. For growth and learning and loss. Yes, be grateful for loss for sometimes it is our best teacher. Be grateful for friends and family and those strangers who pass through your life for a second and are gone.

Thank you for reading and listening.